About a week ago, I predicted that at least one Black man will kill another Black man in Atlanta, Georgia during NBA All-star weekend. If I’m not mistaking weekends start on Friday night in American society. On Thursday, March 4th, 2021, Chucky Trill of Houston, Texas was shot and killed in Atlanta, Georgia. He died in another Black man’s arms that referred to him as his brother in an article I read. As a victim of Black on Black crime who was shot in the Back in 2003 close range with a 38. caliber pistol, I ‘ve become passionate about discovering a cure for Black on Black crime and nihilism in the Black community. I often wonder can we still blame the root cause of Black on Black homicide on White Supremacy and what Charles Hamilton coined “ institutional racism”. In 2001, I moved to Baltimore, Maryland from Raleigh, North Carolina to pursue a PhD in Higher Education at Morgan State University. However, the program’s curriculum was embedded in White Supremacy.
Somehow four years of studying racism and White Supremacy, led me to studying Black on Black crime. Baltimore City is riddled with daily Black on Black murder and it’s truly heart wrenching and terrifying. I’m not sure how studying racism lead me to studying Black on Black crime but this passion of mine seems to have become a lifetime passion. I use to refer to the end result of institutional racism and White Supremacy as “Black misery”. But is this truly the case, are we doomed because of racism and White Supremacy or are we doomed because we truly are feeble minded like the racist Eugenics philosophers suggested in their research. I do not think this is the case, however, when I see the state of Black America I often wonder is there some validity in their claims. In fact, after living in the Baltimore area for over 9 years, I’m convinced that the majority of African-Americans are mentally ill. I’ve never lived in a city where it seems all Blacks hate each other and despise the success of other Blacks.
I’ve never lived in a city, where I could not develop a relationship with another Black man it that could not turn into a genuine friendship. The majority of Black men that I tried to befriend as I am a transient and all alone, it would have been nice to meet one Black man that I could hang with and enjoy the night life. Instead I found myself hanging in the Fells Point district of Baltimore alone for 9 years. It seemed that each Black man that I tried to befriend was in a competitive mind state instead of a brotherly loving mind state. It’s as if Black men are just naturally against one another at all times. Don’t matter if its the job, church, school, sports, dinner, dancing, dating, homeowner ship, socioeconomic status, career goals and life. It’s seems as if it’s a life time competition to out do one another in the game of life.
Therefore, I wonder does this competitive spirit come from racism, White Supremacy, and slavery or are we just naturally against one another. Whoever killed Chucky Trill I’m sure it was a rival gang member or rap artist. I’m just a normal guy with no fame and lot’s of education and I live a decent, lifestyle and in Baltimore, Maryland the looks I get from other Black men and the experiences, I’ve had while living there one would think I was rich or famous. So I can only imagine the competitive hateful spirit that exist among famous rap stars who only rap and sing about demonic violence and the degrading of Black women. In fact, If you just look down your timeline on Instagram and Facebook our race is the only race doing dance challenges to demonic violent music with our children dancing in with the parents. So sad, foolish, fatuous, inarticulate and untaught.
Growing up in Suburbia, I was in love with the opposite of my upbringing which I now refer to as Black excellence. I was infatuated with hood mentality, gangster life, thug life, Tupac, Biggie Smalls, Nas, Jay-Z, and all the other rappers that brainwashed me and several friends into being thugs and wanna be thugs. Instead of us mastering the skills that would lead us to prosperous lifestyles we mastered how to to walk like Tupac in the movie “Juice”. We mastered how to talk like the rappers we idealize and how to pretend to be gangsters and thugs. I presume that this same ignorance and foolishness is what led to the death the Houston rapper named Chucky Trill. Murder in the Black community is exciting and has become a lifestyle that is accepted and respected by young Black men. Not going to college or becoming an entrepreneur or a NASDAQ and S&P guru. We master and take pride in lifestyles and characteristics that lead to death, prison, misery and agony. In fact, I think the article I read regarding Chucky Trill indicated that his father was apart of “Rap A Lot” records or a rival gang member of Rap A Lot records.
Honestly, when a rapper dies I do not have to read the article because I know that the reason some Black man’s brain has been splattered on the concrete is because of the same reason my childhood friends are now whining and crying about the quality of their lives. The reason is because they allowed Hip Hop and thug culture to brainwash them into disregarding learning the life skills they needed to learn during the ages of 13 to 21. These are the critical years of our lives, and sadly to say most young Black boys and men are mastering how to be a gangster instead of mastering how to be productive citizen in life. In fact, the brainwashing of Black men through Hip Hop and thug culture is so bad that some of our leaders become natural hypocrites. As a Black man it’s like regardless of how successful you are and how powerful your platform may be, it’s like they still have to display that keep it real mentality. Community activist Neely Fuller Jr contends that we are poisoned by White Supremacy? Is the poison from White Supremacy?
For example, LeBron James gives back to the community and says great things regarding the community and racism and White Supremacy. However, he’s also easily seen working out to rap music and singing the same lyrics that destroy the minds of young Black boys. In fact, not only can you see him sing and rap the same lyrics that destroy Black boys minds, you can also see him using the same gangster hand gestures while singing those lyrics that motivate young Black boys to commit murders and live lifestyles that lead them to the graveyard or prison. I’m sure Chucky Trill was raised by a father who instilled a gangster state of mind in him instead of peaceful loving state of mind.
What is wrong with us? Is keeping it real and being thugs and carrying out this image our culture? Our culture was Black excellence before all this rap music was transformed into murder music.